Financial update and a THANK YOU!!!!

This is for those of you who are paying attention to & caring for this part of our lives:
I had to have our furnace/hot water systerm serviced yesterday. About 5 hours of labor plus parts so fairly expensive. Perhaps $500 plus?? unless they have mercy on me!!!

The blessing in it is that it now works at 83 1/2% efficiency. I guess brand new ones work at 86% efficiency. May cut down on oil usage too???

We lose our health coverage as of the end of January. Now we are a 3 person family instead of 4 so the amount of money I can earn/receive is lower. I will have to pay for health insurance after January for the 3 of us. I don't know how much that will be yet.

On the plus side, I have my music to sell, David's Harris' book that I have with me...I get 50% of sales, Bob Quadra's CDs & we get 100% of that, and Sandra Cooper's jewelry (of which I have a LARGE collection with me) and we 100% of those sales. These items have to be purchased directly from me in order for the proceeds to go to us. (Except for my music on soundclick.com)

I just need to be more intentional about the getting the word out about these items & get a new batch of my own CD done for those who don't use iPods etc.

PLUS you all have been tremendously generous in your financial blessing. I have not had to be anxious about that part of our lives. THANK YOU!!! We (I say "we" because the kids have become quite lavish in their giving to others lately...like Bobby was. I can't think of a time that he ever said, No when I was feeling led to give something that was a sacrifice for us...even when I gave away my ENGAGEMENT RING!!! Rodney Howard Browne meeting...need I say more?!) we keep giving & God keeps giving back PLUS more added on top! It is quite a story He is building into us.

Heading west.........

we'll be in western PA with family for Christmas. Should be back around 1/4/08. thanks to my lovely friend, intercessor, prophetess, housesitter & her beautiful doggies for watching over things whilst we are away...........love to you all.

new song Take Me There is almost complete

This is the first song of a new project I am working on with Bob Young, Jeff Reid & Tony Green (as well as though of you who I have emailed an early mix to for input :) can't wait until it's done & to get started on the next tunes.

DO NOT STRESS OVER CHRISTMAS & NEW YEARS ETC...

When my husband & I bought our first house this summer, we had no idea that we would have less than a month before he would die suddenly & unexpectedly. But God KNEW.
When we closed on the house, God spoke to my heart: DO NOT be uptight about getting the house in order, unpacking & all of that. RELAX. ENJOY your husband, enjoy your kids, enjoy the land & the house.

And this time, I listened. We had rich, beautiful, simple, joyful time together...the 4 of us & time with friends & family in those 3 weeks. The boxes were stacked everywhere & we didn't care. It was OK & we LOVED each other & i am so glad we did. I am so glad we had those times by the river & in the yard & in our new town & putting aside the TO DO list for awhile.

So here I am, 5 months after his death, many boxes are still stacked around me reminding me of HOW GLAD I AM that we chose to set aside most of the DOING to simply BE with the ones we love the most in all the world.

CHERISH the ones you love, LOVE the ones you're with, FORGIVE & LET GO of the hurts, FORGIVE yourself, DO NOT freak out over tinsel & gift-buying & your hoilday menu or guest list or your disappointments in yourself or others. LOOK people in the eye & say THANK YOU. "Shower the people you love with love...Show them the way you feel. Things are gonna be much better, if you only will. That's what I'd like to do to you....." - James Taylor sang it; not sure who wrote it!. EVERY chance you get. With as much love as I can convey in a BLOG..........Mimi

Hurricanes of Love are Here...

Well, it's 4:44AM so it seemed like the right time to post this. around the fall of 2001, I had an experience with God. I think it was right around the time my extended family & I were near the Outer Banks, NC. We had to be evacuated from the coast due to a major hurricane that came through. God began to speak to me about His "Hurricanes of love" that were coming to this realm. He gave me the impression that many people see this move as something chaotic, wild, driving, insane & they would reject it as something that couldn't be of God. But He put on my heart that it WOULD be from Him and that those who have drawn near to Him in INTIMACY over the past years would recognize this as Him, His doing. In it I sensed that He would be reordering EVERYTHING. Picking up everything that is, and placing things back down in His order (which is so VASTLY different from what we think of as "order"). I also felt that those who rejected this move would also come against those who embrace it. Hey. It's ALWAYS been that way! So if your an "embracer" get over it & walk in love. If you're a "rejecter" perhaps you might want to step back for a moment or two...pause...read your "Owner's Manual" on a deep level & then see what happens next! :) None of us have EVER been down this road before...only He knows the way...which He reveals to those who lay their heads upon his chest, listen to His heartbeat & love....the thing that clued me in that these Hurricanes are releasing right now is that I wrote a new song during a time alone with God as the kids & I were travelling up & down the east coast & into the midwest. When we hit Chicago, it got really strong....wanting/needing to be more BLISSED than ever
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Possible MOWevent western mass??????

just in the seeking God/discussion mode right now. Thought if you take the time to read my blog, you may even take the time to pray too :)

wow wow wow wow wow!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

worcester MOW event...wow is all i can say right now.

AND Jeff Reid's 11 year old nephew that was in an induced coma about 4 weeks ago & doctors gave about 2 weeks to live is OUT OF THE HOSPITAL AT HOME!!!!!!! Michael, Jeff & others prayed for him. Michael declared he would live & not die AND get out the hospital & it came to pass. We are thanking God hugely along with the Reid Family. Check out Caring Bridges web site I think for more about Alex Reid :)

Double Birthday Hanukkah/Christmas Bash

Michael turned 10 in November; Hadassah turns 5 in January & I only have the motivation to plan one party :) So I invite you & especially your kids if you have any to a double birthday party on Friday December 14th here at our home. We will start the party at noon & go until late that night. I guess it be kind of an open house. Hanuakkah will be over by then but that doesn't mean we can't still have a few latkes & light the menorrah if we want to. (perhaps even listen to the reading of The Flying Latke that Bobby & I recorded for the kids 2 Hanukkah/Christmases ago) My desire for this party is to bless the kids. It has been hard on them without Bobby & these milestones are bitter sweet. So I invite you ALL, grown-ups & kids, to come & celebrate life with us. I ask specifically that each of you would write down either words of wisdom, words of advice, prophetic words, poems or songs, works of art for Michael & Hadassah that I could put into a book for each of them. Something from the Father's heart to theirs. If you can, bring something to share to eat or drink & bring your instruments so we can jam. I hope to have Bobby's drums set up by then, especially after hearing/experiencing the amazing night in SC when Michael was invited to play with the MOW team. wow wow wow wow. a very supernatural, emotional experience for us all. Love, Mimi

MOW Event Worcester, MA 11/28 - ???

Go to the Mountain of Worship link here on my site in my favorites list for more details. Let me know if you want to ride over with us.

New tunes from Mimi, Bob Young, Jeff Reid, Tony Green...

COMING SOON! God has reconnected me with old friends from my Emerald Vein days (SubRosa Records), Berklee & the Vineyard (yes, THAT Tony Green) to record some new/old music. The first to be ready will be "Take Me There", a song I wrote in the late 80s? that Bob Young & Jeff Reid resurrected during this healing journey I've been on. Jeff plays the piano, Tony Green on bass, me on vocals & Bob Young on everything else, producing, engineering. Hope to have this tune & others ready soon for downloadability :) Not sure which service yet. In the meantime, my Floating Deeper CD is available on soundclick.com Look up Mimi Caban. And you find Emerald Vein music by doing a search on the web. It may be with iTunes. I'll have to get that info from Bob & link it to my web site. Thank you for supporting us :)

we are finally home 11/27

we arrived around monday night. had a hard time accessing this blog during our travels for some reason. sorry that i couldn't post updates & some of you, many of you thought we were back in around 11/17. we were supposed to be but i had a hospital stay (just overnight) & van vandalized while in cincinnati which put all of our other plans back. it was all good though. (except the big bill to fix van damage!) because of the delays, we ended up heading past where my dad/mom live right at Thanksgiving time. dad just closed on his new home so we stayed with him, help him unpack a little & spent the holiday with my family. much more to tell but i need a weekend to just write!

CORRECTION: Mimi's new myspace

won't you be my friend? www.myspace.com/opensoaks This is turning out to be a great networking tool. If you are in music, dance, theatre, film, ministry, interested in Darfur, IRIS or what the Banovs are doing...any of the arts, come to myspace & see who's there. Met Charlie Peacock in Chicago & others who are linked to my myspace now. I did mine with a nickname though so unless I invite you to be a friend or you know my name, you can't find me :)

Shabbat shalom from PA...

Sitting here at my brother's house,cleaned leaves from the yard, babysitting my sister's dog :), kids are playing with cousins & making soup. I miss Bobby so much today. As always, shabbat seems to be the hardest day...it was always such a nice restful, family day. Time to do nothing, nap, be together, watch a movie, play a game. Listening to Bruce Hornsby's Intersections DVD collection right now, makes me think of Bobby. We've been having a good time traveling & ealrning new things (the bridge competition in Virginia in early/mid 1800s see Lemuel Chenoweth for more info; learning that oil was first discovered in America in Titusville, PA by a train engineer I think?) Loving our new Shiller Math curriculum...nice to be able to take education on the road :) I love you all...hope someone is reading this. Don't be afraid to post comments here too!

wow wow wow wow wow!

it is monday 10/29. we are now in Pittsburgh. Pulled into town just as the Red Sox won the World Series last night! Our time in Columbia was WOW. The first 2 days were very hard. We each missed Bobby so intensely. But Thursday night we had breakthrough. Hadassah & I literally flew through the air (ask me about this!). Thank you to Pam, Martha, Joe & Celeste, Danny, Karen, Lee, Holly, Peter, Deborah, Yvonne, Jeff, Marie, Julie, Brenda, Rebecca, Britany & so many other total strangers who loved on us & prayed us through. We ended our time at the home of Yvonne W. for some great food & healing loves & at the home of MOW where Michael was released to get on the drums with the band. I was WOW-blissed at the time & not aware that they had switched drummers until Peter told me. Michael sounded like Bobby. The place just sort of stopped suspended in time around this little boy entering into the anointing & gifting of his father/Father. For those of us who love Bobby, it was a very emotional moment...pregnant with so much love & power...really truly amazing. I had said to Michael earlier that night at Yvonne's house: I've been wondering who would be my drummer now that Daddy is gone. Maybe it will be you. Of course, I had know idea that Michael would be invited to play drums with the band that night. But God did. Maybe people have spoken into our lives that God has many wonderful surprises waiting for Michael Hadassah & me. To be encouraged & be hopeful. I believe the surprises have begun...Love from us....Mimi

Upcoming Caban Itinerary

10/16 - 10/17 Bob & Susan Young's to work on recording project East Stroudsburg(and see puppies!)

10/17 - 10/21 PA to celebrate Dad's 70th birthday Western PA

10/22 - 10/26 MOW Conference in Columbia SC

10/29 - 11/5 Stephanie's Pittsburgh, PA Tori Amos :)

11/5 - 11/7 (tentative dates) Sandra & Jeff Cooper Cincy, OH

11/7 - 11/14 (tentative dates) Pulse Chicago w/Jeff Reid & Charlie Peacock

11/17 HOME for MICHAEL'S 10TH BIRTHDAY BASH...LET'S MAKE IT A SPECIAL ONE!

I need a housesitter for some of these dates; contact me if you're interested :)

David Harris' New Book Released...

Bobby's & my best friend, David Harris, has released his first book: Signs, Wonders & Worship (published by Destiny Image publishers who also publishes books by Myles Munroe, James Goll, Tommy Tenney, Kim Clement, T. D. Jakes etc etc). It has been several years in development but it is finally here.

I will have 69 copies to sell on my upcoming trip. $15 each & David & Judy have offered to give 50% of sales to the Caban Care Fund. Email to reserve your copy today :) Peace, Mimi

Toda rabah! Merci beaucoup!....

Muchos gracias! Thank you! In any language, I am so grateful for Kathy, Sharon, Brud, Steve F., Michelle, Tanya & others who have come out recently to help unpack, hang out with the kids, deal with wasps & mice & generally bring good soup & some order to our lives. I love you all. Thank you!!! Love, Mimi

Update on Hadassah & Michael

We did go to Bay State hospital in Springfield. Hadassah has a bladder infection & is on antibiotics. She is still not back to herself. What a weekend, what a hard hard season of life. Michael was blessed with a weekend at a friends house which he LOVED! Thank you to all who are loving in your prayers

Please Pray for Hadassah

Hadassah has been having a very hard week emotionally & today was in the doctor's with 103 degree fever. They actually thought she should go to the hospital but because of Bob's recent death & her grandpa being hospitalized recently, her pediatrician tried to improvise & kept her at the office for 3 hours while they tried to get urine (couldn't) & blood (stuck her in both arms but couldn't find her veins because they are so small). They made us tea & covered her in a blanket while we tried to decide what to do. Her temp dropped to normal after she sweated profusely which all seemed good. Dr Sickle sent us home & asked me to get a urine sample at home & call in to update her over the weekend. But now Hadassah is in bed, feels feverish again, has a listlessness about her & is sleeping. I am exhausted on every level.

(Michael is having it out with God right now asking legitamate questions about why our lives are so hard right now. He's wondering if God is really there or is He just a fairy tale, Mom, is this some kind of a test like Graham Cooke talks about, the Bible says God won't abandon us but it feels like God doesn't like us anymore & has left us. He's just asking for a little happiness on our family.) Hadassah was afraid to see the doctor because she thought going to the DR would make her die. I need wisdom, emotional & physical strength for all 3 of us to get through this & so that I can make the right decision of whether to take her to the hospital or whether she'll be OK. The closest hospital is the one where Bobby passed away. I thank you all...Love, Mimi

Good Report on Mimi's Dad - 10-5-07

Dad had a DR appt this week. He can return to his exercise routine AND there is no need to reinstall a pacemaker which is the very specific thing I prayed for! I am so happy. Thanks for your prayers!

What happened on July 19, 2007

It was a beautiful day. I spent the first couple of hours outside mowing our lawn, or part of it rather. The new house has about 1/2 acre of land & since we are 12 miles from the closest gym, I asked Bobby for a push lawn mower (not gas or electric but the kind we used when I was a kid) for my birthday :) I figured I could mow it in sections several times a week & get a good workout.

Bobby was inside hanging out with the kids. He was on a part time teaching schedule for the summer & God had told me that we should just take our time getting unpacked in the new house, Specifically He told me to enjoy my husband, enjoy my kids, enjoy the land, have fun & relax! We closed on the house (our first) on June 22nd & finished the move 6/25, one day before my birthday. So I received the house AND the lawn mower from Bobby.

Bob & I had planned a housewarming party for that Saturday 7/21 so after I mowed the lawn, all 4 of us got in the van to ride into Westfield to do some shopping. I remember that we stopped at the Farm & Feed supply place, patted the dog that worked there, met an EMT (who came later to our house for a 911 call), looked at bat houses. Bob bought a propane tank for our grill & I remember him looking at all of the Carhartt stuff & he was thinking of our stepdad, Frank.

Then we stopped at the Bread Basket which is a wonderful little bakery goody shop run by Mennonite ladies. Bob met a couple of guys who were out hiking & surveying land out here for new power lines. The ladies in the store recalled later on how Michael & I were trying to pick out something yummy for Bobby while he waited outside w/Hadassah. He loved the Kutztown Birch Beer & Black Cherry sodas. Then we went on to Ocean State Job Lots where I found melamine dishes that I really liked. I was all excited & Bobby put his arm around me & said, you're a happy girl: you got your house, you got your plates...enormous grin on both of our faces. We had 2 carts filled with stuff for the house & the party. I remember all these organic soups being for sale there at a good price. I bought LOTS of them & I rememebr thinking: why am i buying all of this soup? it's summer. (now that it is fall & bobby is gone & I don't feel like cooking, those soups are something healthy & easy that I can make & I think of him every time.)

I remember Bobby needing to use the bathroom twice while we were there. He never said anything about feeling weird or ill. The kids went to the rest room with him. The only thing Michael said later that he thought was a little different were the long pauses between Daddy's words. But those of us who know Bob know that he often paused...sometimes excruciatingly looooooong pauses between thoughts! :)

Earlier that week or perhaps the week before, he mentioned feeling dizzy & his cheeks actually looked flushed. We pretty much moved ourselves & did a lot of physical work those days & Bob had been on meds for high blood pressure for a number of years. But he was stubborn about getting it checked regularly...though he had bought a new bike the week before he died to get more exercise.

So we paid for everything & headed to Stop & Shop. I remember looking at the time on the van clock. It was 4:39 & I said Oh I'll have to hurry & get this done so we can make it to the dump on time. We all went into the store, looked at a yard gazebo they had on sale. I asked Bobby if he thought we should buy it now. He said we should wait. We thought the wild caught salmon was on sale that day but found out the sale didn't start until the next day. Bobby said, That's OK we can come back tomorrow. I said I didn't want to do more shopping tomorrow... I just wanted to enjoy the day & not have to run around doing errands. Hadassah as getting wild because she was very tired so I said to Bob: why don't you take her out to the van. You guys can chill out there while Michael & I finished the shopping. So Bobby & Hadassah left the store. That was last time I saw him alive.

About 30-45 minutes later, our license plate number was announced over the store loudspeaker. I thought, that;s odd, if the lights are on why don't they just tell Bobby? So Michael & I went to customer service & awoman named Julianne met us there. She said she had found my husband collapsed on the parking lot & Hadassah was bouncing around inside the van but she was OK. She had already called the paramedics (I later found out that Hadassah told them we were in the store...otherwise they would never have known that Bobby & she were with anyone else.) A male EMT met me next to our van, Bob was already in the ambulance. The EMT looked like he had been crying. He said they were working on Bob but had gotten no response. I was very calm & thinking that nothing bad was happening. Michael started to freak & I really did believe everything was really OK.

I was focused on the location of the van keys. We had brought only 1 set that day & Bobby had it. No one knew where they were. Julianne just took over (she's christian lady it turns out) grabbed Hadasssah's car seat Michael & me & took us to the hospital. I can't write much more right now except to say we did get a pulse briefly while I was in the ER praying for Bobby, really just calling him back into his body. Almost the whole time I really belived he would be all right. It just was impossible that he could be so alive one minute & gone the next. I don't remember what time the doctors quit & pronouced him dead. It was awful. Michael's face...oh my God, to have to tell him Daddy was dead & for Hadassah to be all alone with him when he collapsed...and yet at the same time this incredible belief that God would raise him from the dead rose up in me...and others arrived that night to call him back into his body...and the lead DR from the ER came back in after he was all cleaned up & joined us to pray for Bobby to be raised from the dead as well. I found that to be remarkable. And then July 24 the hospital let his body be put in their chapel where family & friends could view him. Most were there with a conviction that we would see him raised from the dead. The powere & presence of God was so strong, I thought the door would blow off of the room. Someone even brought a TV camera to film (some of you know the account of the man raised from the dead in Africa. Cameras were in the room & filmed the entire thing. Some of you have even seen it.) Our friend from India who was raised from the dead just happened to be in the USA & New England that week. David Harris picked him up & brought him to hospital. There were many hundreds around the world, perhaps thousands, in agreement to see this miracle happen. Many people have had the gift of faith & other things stirred up in them through all of this. And I encourage you, if you've read this far, to share those stories & encounters in this BLOG. It is an encouragement to me & the kids & to others.

I do not understand Bob's death. As far as I'm concerned it was premature & no one will convice me otherwise. The man expected to have a long life here on the earth. He lived Psalm 91. It was in his DNA. His life may have been preempted by his reluctance to be diligent about the blood pressure? I know we all have free will. There were some other very odd things that happened in the 5 days before his death that I won't go into here. But now there is an enormous hole in our hearts & our lives. I think about the days to come & birthdays & milestones for Michael & Hadassah without their Daddy. I do not know what that is like to not have my Dad around. And our other "adopted" kids in the area who were loved on by Bobby. Not to mention the void left in the music world. Bobby is my best friend & the love of my life. I still cannot process that he is gone & my breath catches when I see movement outside of my door. I think it's him coming home from teaching & I wish he WOULD come home to us. Put the frisbee down, Bobby, and come home...

Mimi's Floating Deeper CD Project

I plan to have new copies of my Floating Deeper CD made soon. These will be shrink wrapped & suitable to sell in book stores, music stores, health food stores (very relaxing music...I call the genre "Intuitive Music") or whatever venue you may have. I am hopeful that this will provide a larger stream of income for us in this next year. Plans are in the works for further recording of new material I have written. AND I will finally be able to fill those CD orders that were placed prior to Bobby's death.

Do you have a web site?

If you do, please send me the link so I can view it. Then perhaps I will add it to my favorites :)

Future gathering to celebrate Bobby's life

Keep checking here for date & location & if you would like to help with the planning, prep, music, powerpoint etc, let me know

Need help picking up new dryer

The Killoys in Franklin, MA have offered us a new electric dryer. Is there anyone who would be willing to pick up the dryer in Franklin & deliver it/install it here in Huntington? It will go on our 1st floor, not in the basement :) thanks

Updates on the Cabans

Mimi’s Father
He is healing faster than expected. Please pray that God would guide him as he celebrates his 70th birthday in October :)

Social Security
I am stuck in the social security application process. Please pray for grace, favor and that the Lord would help her locate all documentation needed for God’s best provision for the family for the long run.

Car
Mimi's station wagon was towed to a Westfield, MA towing area by the local police while Mimi was away. This was done without her knowledge & without any explanation.
Some of Bob's personal items are still in the car. Please pray for grace, favor, God’s direction and perfect solution.

Please pray for protection, guidance and HELP regarding the processing & legal aspects of these details of the mortgage & switching the van reg into Mimi's name.

Physical Health
The infection in Mimi's leg is gone though she is still dealing w/an infection in her left eye. As well as a cough that has gone on for over 2 weeks. Michael & Mimi are having difficulty sleeping at night. Please pray for health and God’s protection.

Kids
For Michael to make friends out here; we are new to the area & haven't had a chance to meet too many kids since Bobby's passing.

Wisdom re: home schooling the children; we all desire to continue

Future Hope
Mimi has an invitation to go to Israel June 2008; it has been a longing of hers for 20 years

Thank you for the memorial postings!!!

I love you all so much.

Take Me There by Mimi Caban

This song should be available on iTunes soon! Meanwhile, with all that people are experiencing right now, Mimi wanted to share the lyrics with you.

Take Me There by Mimi Caban

I sit in quiet contemplation/of the roads that lie before me/ one is calling stronger than the rest/ so I look with hesistation/ at this way that lies before me/ and though i know it not it seems to be the best

chorus: enshrouded by a mistiness/ i press through it to know/ the part of me that wants to face the test/ is urging me to go..../ though i know not how/ and i know not where/ I'll trust Your life to take me there

i have tasted sweet sensation/ of Your presence here inside me/ lifting me to heights of joy expressed.../in tears and grand elation/ but if You stay right here inside me/ have I let You reach those who've yet to seek Your rest?

chorus again then bridge: So take me into the holy of holies.........../ and let my spirit be amazed at the presence of You there/ and let me stand in the secret place/ in the midst of a fallen race/ and see humanity face to face/ as i go......

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